High School Rock Band

I had a deep moment of nostalgia today. It was one of those memories that sets you back for a moment. It was buried far in my head, but it resurfaced as though it had been waiting for me to recall it for a very long time.

My high school had a rock band. It was one of the reasons why I wanted to attend it. I was first chair flute for two years, but playing guitar had been a passion of mine for a long time. I wanted a chance to develop my skills with the instrument among others in a setting that offered me opportunities to perform.

I sang, I played guitar, I learned some drums and bass. The rock band holds some of my fondest memories of high school.

One of the songs I remember covering was “The Funeral” by Band of Horses. There was a senior who covered the song with me when I was a freshman. I had met him the summer before and he quickly became a role model. The joy he held when performing was infectious. I was quite starstruck in his presence and will be forever grateful for what he taught me.

I reached out to him and told him that I hope he’s doing well and pursuing whatever makes him happiest. As I have been learning from myself, my internship, my supervisor, and all of the people around me, fulfillment has to take priority in life.

I have to go look into some open-mic nights.


The Fall of Facebook

I made an op-ed piece for an internship a few months ago. I was really proud of the video when I made it, but that was overshadowed when I didn’t hear back from the company. I was incredibly hopeful for that internship.

However, I have had opportunities arise that I wouldn’t have been able to take advantage of had I received that internship. This video recently resurfaced as I was working on a promotional campaign. I thought it might be of interest to someone.

Learning to Love it…Again

I have a habit of romanticizing things. I will idealize just about everything I can, which almost always leads to disappointment or burnout.

I romanticized airports as soon as I had the opportunity to do so. The first time I flew I was too young to have any memories of it, but the airport quickly became my second home. I loved every trip, but I loved the journey there more. The hustle and bustle and business of the airport drew me in.

A lot of it goes back to the blog I wrote about being busy. I have always wanted the life of a business woman who was jumping from city to city with new clients and meetings. I wanted to be jet-setting like that.

I’ve traveled more in the past twelve months than ever before in my life. Between moving to Montreal, being in a long distance relationship, working remotely, and going to conferences, flying became an every-other-week occurrence. I’m sure you can imagine how easily it lost it’s glamour.

Despite this, I am making my best effort to learn how to love flying again. It used to be very easy for me to be happy in an airport, but now I find that I have to make an active effort to find happiness in traveling. It takes more work, but it’s worth it to remind myself of how grateful traveling used to make me feel.


Application Burnout

There has been a lot of content generated around the idea of “YouTuber Burnout.” This type of burnout happens when YouTuber’s or other content creators allow their online careers and personas to become more relevant and important than their actual life. They spend more time working on their content and engagement and slowly lose touch with their health, their family, and any semblance of a life that doesn’t involve a computer screen.

This phenomenon is not new, it’s just taken on a different form as our lives have evolved to be more technology based. People who had 9 to 5 cubicle jobs for 40 years would probably say that they felt burnout too and perhaps list some similar symptoms. Burnout happens to all of us, but what happens when you burn out before you’ve even begun?

Application burnout. It’s common among intern-seeking college students and job-seeking recent graduates. They send in application after application, wondering when they will get a response. At most, I would say I have seen a 10% response rate to my value propositions. I’m still not sure if this is typical or if I need to analyze the way I market myself.

Let’s dig deeper into this idea: what are people doing wrong?

First, they’re not doing their due diligence. I recently submitted my first summer internship application in a long time. I took a break from looking for positions because I felt discouraged by the lack of response. When I found this most recent application, I felt some bit of hope I hadn’t felt in a long time. The company was smaller, very straightforward in their posting, and requested that applications be sent to an email.

Three reasons why I loved this:

1. Even though I have prior experience, I’m technically still an entry-level employee. I want to work with smaller companies so I can build connections, gain experience, and learn new skills in an easier to navigate environment.

2. This one is easy, everyone loves straight to the point job postings. Writing an application for a job is already stressful enough without trying to decode their requirements and ideal candidate characteristics.

3. Sites that offer an email to send applications to are 100% better than sites that outsource their applications through an online program, in my opinion. Those outsourced application sites usually mean that the company is really big and might not even have time to get to your application. It also means that you’re lumped in with everyone else and have very little chance of differentiating yourself.

Application burnout is still in the back of my mind, but I seem to have beaten it for now. By figuring out what I wanted from a company, I was able to seek out those types of positions. Having a glimmer of hope for an internship that really excites you will encourage you to do your part in crafting an amazing application.

It can be good and bad to apply to everything that is within your grasp, but quality still reigns over quantity. Crafting customized, well written, and well-researched applications will make sure you seek out companies that mean something to you. Happy internship hunting!



Questions to Ask Yourself This Week

I find that I go through periods of asking more questions and periods of being quieter. This last week, I asked myself a lot of questions regarding what I want from my future, why I’m excited about what I do, and how I should work towards reducing my stress. I compiled a list of some questions that you can ask yourself this week to help reflect on what you are doing now and how it will help shape your future:

Why did you start? When I get frustrated about what I’m doing or bogged down with work, I find that going back to the beginning and reminding myself why I started is a great way to refocus.

What will this add to your future? Maybe you started a project a few years ago and kept it going because you felt an obligation to it or you didn’t want to let it go. If you don’t have any time in your schedule, maybe it’s time to question if some of your older projects are acting more as burdens.

Is your method of stress relief effective? A few weeks ago, I found myself incapable of relaxing. Unless I felt like I was achieving something, I would be unsatisfied. I started asking myself what had changed in my stress relief routine recently, and I realized I had missed a lot of workouts so that I could study more. Simply adding more exercise back into my routine fixed the problem in no time. Make sure you take a look at what helps you relax and don’t neglect it.

What does progress look like? Depending on your time frame, the answer to this question may be incredibly varied. If you have an essay due at 11:59 this evening, progress might look like a first draft done within the hour. On the other hand, if you have a video project you’ve been continuously working on, progress might look like filming today, editing for the next three days, and uploading in four days. Determine your progress timeline and remember to glance at it when you get discouraged.

Are you being honest? There are days where I say that I worked 8 hours, but I really spent 8 hours half-assing what I could have gotten done in 4 hours. Sometimes things will be slower and sometimes you’ll be a powerhouse of productivity. No matter where you fall, what matters most is that you’re honest with yourself about how much effort you are putting in.

Have a great week,